I was weaker than I thought.
I did not intend to fight with you emotionally or prove anything to you. I just want to help myself, being away is the best remedy, at least for the moment.
Sorry that I did not control my emotion well enough. I felt bad bothering others, too. Maybe that time I still had some expectation from you, I thought you would care and take it seriously, at least for the little friendship and memories that we still share, but thanks for proving me wrong, our friendship worth shit.
My affection for you was a joke. I suffered for being totally one-sided. I tried lots of different ways to handle that, but somehow my true feeling failed me, again and again. Pretended to be happy but dying every second inside. I sucked being fake.
Should I blame anyone? No, I really shouldn’t. Everyone has their own priority that should be respected. In fact, I should be thankful. Thanks for those who hurt me that make me grow stronger. Thanks for the incident that sober me up, so that I would no longer live under your shadow.
Let bygones be bygones.
I did not mean to catch people attention. However, I was grateful that I caught those attentions from other friends who I overlooked, who had been treating me sincerely and keeping me rationalized, is really good to feel the significance for someone. =p
‘If you spend too long holding on the one who treats you like an option, you will miss finding someone who treats you like a priority’
Chapter with you ends here.
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