Today was another bad day for me.
I was locked inside toilet for 1 hour and paid RM45 for the locksmith on my own and still, need to handle a wave of jokes(because that was my second times) which I am bored to listen and respond, with my bad mood at that time being.
I was criticized by my thesis supervisor, saying that I was disrespectful because of my ‘simple’ phone messages made him think that I was treating him as a friend instead of a lecturer. For your information, he has been not replying my sms, calls and email just for this little small matter. That was the first time being said disrespectful.
Then, I came across to know that the one I like is already attached, I was already prepared but still, I felt sad, my heart was torn, lots of uncomfortable thoughts happened in my mind, I tried to find someone to talk to which is the best way to calm me down, but nobody was there with me, I tried to find friends who were online, but the lagging internet line just blocked my way. Perhaps my entrusted friends are also bored listening my whining and complaining.
Well, I am human and I have feeling, my heart is not made of stone. I have been trying so hard to make my life happier. And it is always not fair to give bad faces to other friends. People like happy friends. I understand that. In fact, I already tolerate a lot with my feelings. I try my best to make my emotion unnoticeable. But when I am failed, a little concern to me is just nice, and I will be glad that nobody pours salts on the injuries.
Life is half of happiness and half of grief, whether you like it or not, take it and live with it, and I believe this dark moment will pass real soon.